All MEA-OK.  This morning after taking a shower and getting dressed, I came in here.  Of course.  Anyways, the other day my cat had kittens....4 of them...and all but one died.  Well  About 30 minutes ago Dad goes, "We don't have a kitten anymore."  Omg WHAT!?  Uhm...ok....So I thought maybe it just...died...or something, but NOOOOO, it didn't happen that way....UGH!  Normally when cats eat their babies, you don't find anything left of it.  Well..again..another NOOOOOO, it COULDNT happen that way.  She ATE its HEAD OFF and thats it.  It's little body is laying out there with NO FREAKING HEAD.  She slowly nibbled her baby's way to DECAPITATION..UgH!  "Only the strong survive."  Dun dun dun.  Soooo I kinda went frantic when he told me and repeatedly said, "I won't look..I WILL NOT look..nope..."  And I heard some sympathy in Daddy's voice when he kept saying, "No...No you dont...its ok...dont look."  So.....THEN after fifty-billion katrillion questions, I told dad I would go bury it.  nope...no no no.  He said, "No, baby, you don't need to see it.  I'll do it.  I'm sorry."  Sooo he went and took a shower.  What did I do?  I walked to the window to see if I could get a peek at it 'cause by all means I didnt want to just SEE it..up close and personal....well when I walked around the corner, who was up in the window seal lookin' sad and cryin?  THE MURDERESS her self!  ok so shes not a murderer....its nature but STILL....I felt so sorry for her 'cause I can still (20 minutes later) hear her back there meowing and crying, a long deep cry.  WTF....I liked to have jumped out of my skin with her standing there waiting for me.  woot woot...anyways I couldnt see the baby, so I just came back here to write my first freaking journal entry which probably NOBODY but benjamin will read 'cause he's gonna find something to critique me on.  Amen.Amen...